Monday: (FIRST DAY OF SCHOOL, FIRST DAY OF SCHOOL!!) We got up at 6, got dressed and took pictures. I didn't have her eat breakfast because she receives free lunch. And I thought allowing her to eat breakfast there will teach her how the breakfast/lunch line works, she'll learn her number, and meet friends. Now why 6am even though school doesn't start til 7:45...? Because I transferred Selena to a school closer to her day care so I could work longer hours, so because of this I have to provide her transportation. Which isn't a problem, and if I have to work early and am unable to drop her off I can always drop her off at day care and they bring her to school for me. So we get to school and we ( Selena, myself and her father.) drop off her backpack to her class room and head to eat breakfast. The line was FOREVER long but we were told many times she wouldn't be counted late because it was the 1st day. Her dad kissed her goodbye and left for work which left just me and the Bug, I hate doing things alone, it's an annoying habit of mine. We go through the line get breakfast and sit and eat. This is where I learned Selena needs to eat breakfast at home. She is the slowest eater in the WORLD!! I guess I've never noticed because at home she doesn't have a time limit to eat. After breakfast we walk to class and I drop her off and this is where it goes downhill...I try to sneak out to which I'm caught and because the morning announcements are on I stay so I don't disrupt class. Then when they are over I try to sneak out again, to which I'm caught again and she starts crying (and I almost do too) after the 3rd attempt I get out of there I'm in the hall waiting by the door unable to leave because the door is blocked (a child tries to run out after mom and the teachers catch her and it happens to be right in front of the door.) so I stand there listening and then I hear her, every Mother knows their child's cry...it's a crazy talent. She loses her marbles crying out for me, and 3 times I have to stop myself from going in the classroom to calm her down. When the teachers and the runaway child move from the door I no longer hear my Bug crying out for me and I walk to the car, still not crying. I almost break down a few times but I make it home. I have the day off so I climb into bed with Selena's blanket and send of her 1st day of school picture to family and friends and then break down and cry myself to sleep. After Pickering her up I took her dinner and spent the evening trying to talk her into school being fun.
|Selena off to "Big Girl School"|
Tuesday: We ate breakfast at home, then headed off to school. I dropped her off and again got the tears and "no Mama please don't leave." Picked her up and once again spent the evening trying to talk her into school being fun.
Wednesday: I spent five minutes sitting in the hallway of Selena's school trying to convince Selena that school is fun to which I get the most heartbreaking response "Mama I gave school a chance, and I'm really sorry I just don't like it, please let me go home." Her teacher just happen to be walking by decided to help with Selena and she grabbed her arm and tried to pull her away from me, this turned an upset child into a screaming one! I got upset myself and I found myself standing in the hallway raising my voice at her teacher. After a small talk we got Selena into class. And again that night I spent time trying to convince her that school is fun...this isn't working if you couldn't tell.
Thursday: I had to be at work early, so I dropped Selena off at daycare, and they would bring her to school for me. How the morning went is unknown to be because I haven't spoken to the lady who dropped them off. The only thing I do know is Selena said she was lost looking for the "big kids" (the other kids from daycare.) and an office lady brought Selena to class. So a small recap Selena, a four year old was let into school and left to wonder around her school until someone noticed her. I was pissed, I took it up with daycare only to find out it was a school issue, they (daycare) don't enter the building when dropping them off. By this time I notice I'm not eating but once a day since Monday, I'm so tired that if I'm not doing something I'm finding myself asleep, and I'm so stressed I'm surprised my hair isn't all gone!
Friday: I bring Selena to class after a run about me needing an ID to enter the school, only to find out I only need it during the school time (7:30-2:45), the lady was only giving me a hard time because she could. Selena is crying about me leaving by this point it's nothing new and has started to make me angry instead of sad. I spend all of work wishing to be home with Selena and for the longest week ever to be over.
So Selena's first week of school was...how do I put this nicely... A disaster!! She cried every time I dropped her off and just about everyday something was wrong. I'm hoping for a better week next week but I'm not holding my breath. Selena is a lot like me, she doesn't like change, or being alone, or going to new places alone. Her teacher says she's fine once she calms down she has fun at school and everyone keeps telling me to give her time she will get use to it. I'm hoping it will happen soon, I don't think I can go through another week of this.
One night before I went to bed I check on Selena and covered her up. I sat down beside her bed and talked to her, nothing of importance, just how much I loved her and I how I hoped she'd start liking school. Before I knew it I was crying. I guess Selena isn't the only one taking going to school hard. When I think of her at Pre-K, I see her one moment as a small little girl and the next I see her in high school! It just seems to fly so fast for me. This weekend has been like a pause button for me, we've spent all of it in pj's watching movies and cuddling on the couch. It's honestly been the best weekend I've had in a while...well minus my stupid fridge breaking and having to put everything is my not so cold freezer and having to move my frozen food to a friends house....
I'm honestly in utter shock I still have hair after this week!!